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Well the last several months have left me wondering what I am supposed to do with my life.

-Am I supposed to build my current business?

-Am I supposed to get back into some kind of teaching ministry?

It is a very hard call because I am not sure how ministry, that I am familiar with, would manifest itself as a Catholic....Then tonight happened.

We live in town and so we have dumpsters. Jennifer asked me to take out the trash and the compost. I dumped the compost in our natural fertilizer bin and then proceeded to the dumpster. I opened the gate, the dogs running to mark their spots.

When I opened the dumpster there was a black three ring binder on top that said "Sermon on the Mount, Eben Emerson." What is that all about? I haven't thrown anything like that away, certainly not since the last time the trash ran. It usually runs every three days. I pulled it out and asked Jennifer is she was doing some cleaning and threw it away. She did not.

I opened the folder and some of the study series from that folder was gone but there were several other studies that I had done years ago. I was really freaked out. We checked all the areas where things like that are stored and didn't find any sign of things being moved.

What is going on?

I was a little freaked out. Jennifer sent me to the store to get oil for fried okra and I just kept thinking about it. Did I throw it away? Why was it in the dumpster? It had my name on it!!! And I didn't throw it away!!! What is going on?!?!?!

When I began to look through the folder I found notes from a class from Richard Rogers and several sermon notes and outlines I had preached. There were also many many pages of research I had done on those respective sermons.

As I looked through them I remembered how much I loved preaching. It is the only thing I ever felt I was supposed to do.

I am very skeptical of signs and modern miracles. Not because I don't believe they still happen but because of the way I think, more later.

I don't know what is going on but I will say that now, more than ever, I want to be back in ministry. I don't know how or what but I loved it and tonight's events reminded me of that.